I ever read about "if you don't happy, just leave"

I wish i could leave, i wish i could move far far far away from here. I wish it's that easy. 

I dreamt about moving to a bigger city, start to life on my own, and choose what i like and what i don't. Instead of started my life, i drowned myself even deeper in this labyrinth. I knew it's the life has chosen for me, but i want something bigger than this. Trapped in the daily life that always make me cry everyday, i want to be happy.

I'm so sick with this tight schedule and all the weights to finish Med School, i'm so tired for wishing my fantastic,super happy old life back, i'm so fed up to cry over and over and over again and fight the same losing battle with Derry and he couldn't be more careless to even say a word.

I'm fucking tired to say i don't feel happy with my life. 

I just couldn't leave, i have to finish what i started here. My parents put all the trust in me to make their dreams come true, thus, i want to see them happy. I remember 5 years ago i left all the problems behind in Jakarta and started my new life in here, but i learnt it was a dick move because no matter how far i avoid my problem, i have to face it in the end . So here i am, they can see me as a thick brick, but deep down i'm broken inside. Hunger for something i wish i could feel, to be happy.

I really wish i could start a new life, far far far away from this dead end city.