i asked, 'why did you this?' but he wasn't care. and i'm drowning on my tears these last few weeks. these fog of sadness and pain overwhelmed me.  i know you must be tired, me too. fighting the same losing battle, we keep doing this. i get so wrapped in love and the idea of ideal relationship, often times i forget just how to valued my self. i'm a clingy bitch that always push him to do what i want, he said, i'm being too much. did i?

i'm sorry for what all i've done, all the pain i've caused and all your big day that i missed.
i'm sorry, really sorry. even all these tears and tons of sorries won't ever make it right again, isn't?


but is it too much to ask if i want to feel loved and happy again?