Everything was fine the way it was. Normal and ordinary. Then there was you, so randomly too and now you're staring at me. No one can choose who they fall for or when they fall or how they fall or why. Well, I fell for you and I must wait. It's only a matter of time.

Everything was cool the way it was. Just me, my thoughts and I. Then there was you, so randomly too, the way that you walked by.

Waking up this morning and feeling like, i wanna write something. So here i go, sitting on my desk, typing these words and try not to get distracted by any kind of things around me.

I still remember back in last few months, the first time you were staring at me across the restaurant while you had lunch with friends, they teased you to get me and you won't do it because you thought that i'm so out of your league. At that time getting attached with someone was so not in my list. Plus, i have been alone for years and i thought i was not capable for having feelings. But you proved  me wrong, i am that ready, and you showed me i deserve to be happy. Universe speak to us in different way, right? I knew your story and you knew mine before we're here but somehow we made it. That's fate.

Then one day i got the courage to look into your eyes. And i realize you're the only one that matter. After 'It's only a matter of time', we're finally here. It's worth the wait.

I believe those words, 'No one can choose who they fall or when or how or why.' I know i can't choose who i fall in love with, but right now at this very moment of my life, I choose you, to be with you, to be happy with you, to be loved and loving you.

I know you love me in the most unfamiliar ways, sometimes i can not get you and your mind, sometimes you pushing me away but in the end of day you say you've missed me, sometimes you seems so mad to me without any logical reason yet you still pick up my phone. The days like that, the days that i want to punch your stomach so you know how pain i feel everytime you do that. Yet, we stay still. 

And your insecurities fucking kill me. Insecurities only destroy what's good in life.

We are bigger than any mistakes you've made or I've made. Have faith in me like i always have with you. Here's i tell you, to be with you is all that matters now. 

I feel loved and  just realized that love is the greatest thing, the greatest feeling that God ever created for human because when people feel loved and get so much love, they feel completed. Innit?

Thanks for making me feel completed, Muhammad Derry Dhanovan.