Sometimes i feel so-i don't know- lonely, the kind of helpless feeling when everything you're used to has been ripped away. Remember when you were so hard to escape those feelings and you just run away? Remember the last time you said you will never be in what-people-said love again? I do. 

I've turned into a cold hearted, bitter, sad bitch, haven't i?

Or maybe i'm just too lazy to take care of my own heart instead of caring about what people think all the time.